I’ve never been comfortable (or willing? able?) to stop at the point of simply acknowledging something isn’t working properly. Much to the frustration of those that have had to endure these various, and sometimes fleeting, fascinations, I need to poke around into the nitty gritty of exactly what’s not working, and how and why, and what can be done to make it better. Put like that, and viewed objectively, it might all sound very laudable (and it’s not an absolutely awful trait) so you may have to take my word for it that the reality of being in proximity to that process is frequently Not Fun.
This is not, however, a post about learning to walk away – something that is incredibly important but that I’m still not very good at. Nor is it a foofy call to action about personal accountability and contribution (despite both of which also being very important).
There’s been a lot going on in the last couple of years, both in terms of large scale real world events and more local, more personal, more philosophical experiences that I’ve had and in various discussions I would increasingly start off with “well, when I start my own cult / religion” or “when I take over the world..” Although intended as a joke (well, mostly a joke) it would niggle at my brain – what would I do differently if I were in charge? As with other cogitations, it’s not enough to point and declare “that won’t work / isn’t working” – is there realistically a better alternative? What does it look like? How do we get there? How do we make the best of things in the meantime? Because then, even in the sure and certain knowledge that there may be nothing I can do individually, I do know where I stand, and what I stand for. I’m less likely to be misled or manipulated by those with a conflicting agenda if I can genuinely understand where it stands in relation to my own, and better yet to learn from or incorporate aspects that have real value despite any divergence rather than dismissing them out of hand as incompatible. Piece by piece I have been building a solid, coherent personal philosophy and the more I have made a conscious effort of challenging my own thoughts, responses and analysis the more confident I have become in relation to how that impacts my choices, path and practices.
So what will you do once you’ve achieved world domination?