Even magic can lose its thrill. The seasons don’t act like they should, the rituals don’t go to plan, the spells don’t take – the novelty wears off.
A similar phenomenon is currently very much in evidence in relation to our current inclement weather. The staunchest supporters of the cold season (which, while not one myself, I know a few of), who revel in the frigid temperatures, brisk winds, icy excursions and picturesque snowfalls are thoroughly – and vocally – as sick as the rest of us of winter’s continued reluctance to bow out graciously. Being continuously cold and soggy is exhausting, and the amount of energy expended just to stay moderately warm and dry starts to feel like an uneven exchange.
Magic can feel like a similarly unrewarding enterprise. You shore up all of your reserves of knowledge, research, experience, experimentation, dedication and commitment, putting your heart and soul into your practice and sometimes are left with not much to show for it. Not every undertaking will result in a ‘threshold of revelation’ moment. Not every venture will leave you feeling more wise, more fulfilled, more whole. Not every effort will provide the answers you were seeking, or even any answers at all.
So what’s to be done ‘in the face of all aridity and disenchantment’? (*Desiderata, a personal favourite).
Well, the first thing is to acknowledge that it’s completely normal. Anything worthy of work, effort and endurance will almost certainly result in setbacks, and almost certainly more than once. As the maxim goes, if it was easy then everyone would be doing it. And it’s OK to feel disappointed, to feel lost, to question, to doubt, to challenge. At the risk of sounding twee, those are all important parts of any journey.
Try to remember what attracted you, motivated you, enchanted you in the first place. See the beauty in the paths that don’t lead anywhere, the arcs that don’t end and the loops that never quite close. There won’t be big life lessons in everything, or even little ones – carrying on regardless is enough.
A life full of magic does not mean a life devoid of the mundane. All of the same trials and tribulations can, and will, apply. What you do in spite of magic will aid you just as much as what you do for and because of it.